Merry Christmas... 2013

yes.. the most wonderful time of year.. when people are at their best.. they are giving, caring, loving..
I like how certain days can actually change peoples attitude.  Sadly it doesn't last though. But it does give you hope because obviously those people are capable of being all those good things.. they just choose not to be on the rest of the days.. which makes me just wonder what makes them choose that.. what do they gain from being someone they are truly not.. OR.. is it that the one day.. they are being someone they are truly not and the rest of the days they are being their true self.. ya.. ponder that.

so of course.. with the new year around the corner I am already hearing.. so what's your new years resolution.. ugh. really.. again.. cause do we ever really keep any of those!.. yes.. I did quit smoking last May and surprisingly did not start up again.. and yes I still struggle with that.. its not easy..
some of the things I do want to change but not just for the new year.. I call them life changing..

1. to have the courage to live a life TRUE TO MYSELF, not the life others expect of me
2 to not work so hard.. to enjoy PLAY! to make time to play..
3 to have the courage to express my feelings (when I am having a bad day) and not cover it up with a smile and ya I am fine
4 to continue to stay in touch with my (true) friends.. far and near (true friends not just acquaintances)
5 to allow myself complete happiness with no guilt!
6 to stop looking at my self worth in a business like manner.. no more balance statement analogies!
7 no more excuses!
8 to be content with the path that I am currently set on and to be more willing to change when needed!


okay thats just a start.. I'll keep adding to this!

lazy or just busy.. either excuse works for me!

I have been lazy about blogging especially my trips whether road or flight!  I have been to LA a few times since I last blogged and each time I am keenly aware at how large and overwhelming that part of the world can be. I was just there this last month and did some shopping, amazing how the economy sucks so bad there yet customer relations hasn't gotten any better.  Sadly I find its gotten worse, and the housing market.. they say it's getting better but I don't see it.  I found a few websites for auctions, yes you too can own a home for under 150K of course its gutted and it would be a complete reno but hey.. the bones are there and of course LOCATION LOCATION LOCATION!

I found myself at the DMV and keep in mind when in a large city everything takes that much longer! Yes what I can do here in my small hometown in about 10 minutes takes me 4 hours and even then I have to come back the next day because they only offer that service til 4:30pm and it's now 4:35pm! YES,  after a 4 hour wait the representative had the audacity to say its 5 mins past.. I almost jumped over the counter.. the only redeeming thing was that she did state that when I come back tomorrow I won't have to wait in any lines and can just make my way to the front.. uh huh sure.. (I'll believe it when I see it!)

The more I visit big cities the more I appreciate where I am.. small town girl.. and that's okay with me!