lazy or just busy.. either excuse works for me!

I have been lazy about blogging especially my trips whether road or flight!  I have been to LA a few times since I last blogged and each time I am keenly aware at how large and overwhelming that part of the world can be. I was just there this last month and did some shopping, amazing how the economy sucks so bad there yet customer relations hasn't gotten any better.  Sadly I find its gotten worse, and the housing market.. they say it's getting better but I don't see it.  I found a few websites for auctions, yes you too can own a home for under 150K of course its gutted and it would be a complete reno but hey.. the bones are there and of course LOCATION LOCATION LOCATION!

I found myself at the DMV and keep in mind when in a large city everything takes that much longer! Yes what I can do here in my small hometown in about 10 minutes takes me 4 hours and even then I have to come back the next day because they only offer that service til 4:30pm and it's now 4:35pm! YES,  after a 4 hour wait the representative had the audacity to say its 5 mins past.. I almost jumped over the counter.. the only redeeming thing was that she did state that when I come back tomorrow I won't have to wait in any lines and can just make my way to the front.. uh huh sure.. (I'll believe it when I see it!)

The more I visit big cities the more I appreciate where I am.. small town girl.. and that's okay with me!

Another move??

Yes I moved again.. a bigger better house.. has 3 bedrooms, and a fantastic view.. I have to admit though.. I have never moved so much in my life as I have these last 3 yrs.. but then life is about movement.. LOL.. I should not take that so literally though hey.. well the new place is great.. its a much healthier environment..its not that much larger then the other house we were in.. its just all the space is now usable..the old house had a basement that really wasn't used for much other than storage.. here I have a storage room off the garage.. but the 3 bedrooms is so nice to have.. especially now I have room for an office.. and a spare room. Cats have settled in nicely.. as have the humans..

So hopefully this place will hold us for a few years.. be able to save some money to one day maybe buy our own place.. we will see how that goes..

Blessings to you all..

Blessings come in all forms

I had to remind myself that blessings come in all forms.. what we perceive as good.. and bad.. even though I may see it as a bad thing.. good things may come from it.. Need to keep hanging on to that Faith.. cuz that's what this is about right.. Faith... Hope.. and Love.. if it's not.. don't burst my bubble!.. Don't think I can handle that right now.. my ego is a bit bruised.. and of course I see it as bad....but I know.. I have done this before.. things that I think are horrible end up being the best things.. because I learned from it.. and it makes you stronger.. maybe I need to look at the direction I am going.. maybe I need to change it.. ? so much in this head of mine.. feeling a bit overwhelmed.. trying to sort it all out.. of course I won't be able to do that all in one night.. and clearly I have not been able to do it in the last 40 so years!! LOL.. really I am laughing out loud!..
I still wonder..

I still dream...

now to make it reality! that's the part I haven't figured out how to do yet..

if you have any pointers.. I am all ears!

da da dum.... BOOM!

Move went.. seems I unpack well.. looks like I have been here forever.. yes.. everything put away.. no boxes around.. pictures hung.. all things sorted.. go figure.. I am a little anal about making it feel like home.. guess that's not a bad thing.. I have to admit though.. when I make a move like this.. I see how much stuff one can accumulate.. and to be honest.. its a bit disheartening.. but then what does one do when Christmas rolls around.. I love the decorations I have.. and yes... that's about 6-8 boxes right there.. and again.. because I have moved to a smaller home.. looks like I will be purging that too.. a part of me still thinks I made the wrong move right from the get go.. I should have just bought that 5th wheel.. would have been cheaper..AND it would force me to keep my sentimental stuff to a bare minimum. Well that's what I think anyway.. and then too.. can you imagine moving day.. okay unhook the hoses.. hook up the trailer to the truck.. let's go... yeah.. all of 10 minutes.. that's so tuff.. haha...
So the first few nights here have been uneventful, in the sleep category that is.. meaning.. I think I am going to sleep.. just doesn't feel like it.. and then last night I had horrid nightmares, and actually took down my innocent bed lamp.. go figure.. not that it did anything wrong.. but obviously I was threatened by it.. poor cat.. that's all I am going to say.. scared the bejeezus out of me.. can you imagine what it did to the poor kitty... ya.. enuf on that subject or who knows when spca will be knocking on my door.. ya he has such a rough life.. I wanna be MY cat.. that little fella has a GREAT life.. right now.. I am watching him climb up my roof.. oh don't worry.. he gets down just fine.. but I have to laugh.. I am about ready to get my shoes on.. and hike up there with him.. would love to see the view he gets.. has to be something.. I mean.. he goes up there pretty much everyday.. wonder if I can get down just as easy as him though.. prolly not.. I might fall and break something.. like my ego.. haha..
ah well.. so.. today was cleaning day at the previous location..and yes.. I had a good cry.. that house holds many wonderful memories.. and amazing views.. it gave me the opportunity to heal..even though in my head.. I feel like I still need much of that in my life.. ah.. who knows what tomorrow will bring..
and isn't that a good thing!... we don't know what is in store for us.. we have hope, we have faith.. we have our imagination.. and I have much prayer.. that I will continue to be blessed...
FAITH

HOPE

LOVE

PEACE

SERENITY

COMFORT

Feet, Feat, Fail

In a few short weeks I will be moving out of the house I moved into back in May of last year... its been an amazing home.. it truly has been my home.. my security..my place where I found some peace.. and a place that has allowed me to heal...needless to say..I am not ready to leave this sanctuary.. literally.. I am struggling with this choice...sadly I did not make this decision alone.. which I guess makes it that much harder.. I can only hope that it would be a good move.. bringing me into a larger city, might allow me to find a job.. or who knows.. maybe its just a step to be able to save some money so I can move on yet again.. funny thing about me.. here I thought I was all about having "roots".. now in my heart and head.. I am toying with the idea of getting a trailer.. and just buggering off.. so tired of this rat race.. trying to make ends meet.. I figured at this age I would have been a lot further along..but there is always something or someone that gets me off my path..
Questioning.. where do I want to be? what truly makes me happy? is there such a thing.. can one truly be completely and utterly happy.. I use to think that.. I use to think there is always a rainbow.. and I have always danced in the rain.. yes I am using metaphors here.. when the going got bad... I did the best I could do and made the best of it..
I guess I should start looking within.. seems that's where the happiness eludes me.. I talked to a friend today.. and he said.. maybe your healing is over.. and its time to let someone else have your spot.. guess that's what bugs me.. I don't feel healed.. so far from it... tired.. tired of looking around.. trying to figure it out...
as an old saying of mine.. "feet don't fail me now!"

which wolf?

One evening an old Cherokee Indian told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people.

He said, ‘My son, the battle is between two ‘wolves’ inside us all.
One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.
The other is good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.’

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather: ‘Which wolf wins?’

The old Cherokee simply replied, ‘The one you feed.

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